Decisions

I decided to cut my losses with the EAP. The case manager admitted they are only designed to handle crisis counseling, and have no psychologists on their panel. All the claims that they would be willing and prepared to refer me to care for a clinical condition, should I actually be found to need/have it, were well-intentioned lies. I think the fact that two of the people I talked with were surprised with my frustration and wanting to get me somewhere useful made me hang in and try. Otherwise, I probably would have reached this conclusion sooner. Or not, who knows.

Anyway, I looked through the panel for my regular insurance benefits and found a psychologist that isn't too far away, and lists the kinds of specialties I think will cover the experience I want in a therapist. I got the number in my phone and have a reminder to call tomorrow. It's just overwhelming enough that I don't feel too guilty putting it off one more day. Just getting around to trying this again was a lot of effort.